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网购喜悦

2010-09-01T19:10:00.015+08:00

常听朋友说，他们爱逛街爱买很多东西。常见各位美眉不仅头疼，千思万想用尽所有办法让自己包包不付出多余的“血汗钱”。辛辛苦苦储蓄的，当然只想要花在超值的货品上。当然不但超值，而是“价廉物美，品质保证”，各位美眉一直抱着这种远视完美的心态那可不是件简单的事哦！4月初，开始发现了一个网站，令我对网购挑起了兴趣，隆重推荐本人最理想的网购公司， “可爱女人网购城”http://www.cutetygirl.com/index.php

相信各位美眉对网购来得没有信心，担心受骗之类的事发生。说实话，网购会有一定的风险，会有一定的小挫折发生，凭良心说，本人在众多网购商城觉得可爱女人最受信赖。论服务，对各位美眉的基本礼貌是100分，论快递，他们设定了保存卖家和买家利益受保护的原则（这点超赞的），只须今天早上付款下午就可以发货了~无需再等好几个礼拜，提心吊胆的对着自己已经订购的东西烦恼~

了解多数美眉的心情，看货先看价，看价再看品，看品再询问的心理。在此网购城，所有护肤品可是大拍胸口确保100%正品的，无需再担心假货入侵~除了护肤品，其他用具被注明仿制品也很好品质，甚至可以以假乱真了~呵呵。美眉们听过吗？此网购城有超过千多种东西等你们选购哦，100%现货！

单单化妆品而已，已经占了17种品牌去了，就如“（台湾著名品牌，SHILLS），（台湾面膜达人，我的美丽日记），（著名面膜品牌，北海道恋人），（新推出的，绝世美肌面膜和我的心机面膜），（韩国著名化妆护肤品牌，SKIN79）之类。。。。。除此之外，商品包含瘦身美体产品，家居用品，时尚配件之类，也是各位美眉的心头好呢~

犹豫价钱的问题吗？您可以自己私底下拿去比较呢，满荣幸的说道，价钱也是没有一个可以比哦~也是所谓，一分钱一分货的用意呢~ 价格比较便宜也是因为批发商的关系哦，相信各位也是到，拿货数量越多，价格可以慢慢调低咯！优惠策略有声明呢，大家尽情享受店主对大家的好~
此般的网购乐趣，少不了跟朋友的分享~如今我已经成为了可爱女人的VIP会员了，购买东西也便宜很多了~诸位美眉用不着羡慕，您也可以享受此优惠呢，成为会员，购买货品来累计积分，所谓堆积成山，很快就可以享受各种优惠了~店主不会亏待各位踊跃支持着可爱女人的美眉和各位批发商家~希望各位可以多多支持~谢谢~

如图示一些我在可爱女人所买的产品：-

台湾铺里阿麽纯天然隐形面膜-熏衣草味

http://www.cutetygirl.com/goods.php?id=841

** 对急救美白很有效哦~

DODORA钻石闪亮隐形丝袜霜

http://www.cutetygirl.com/goods.php?id=1028

**修复美腿，附有隔离阳光伤害

（小圆形）SHILLS靠近你魔力遮暇膏

http://www.cutetygirl.com/goods.php?id=3526

**有效遮斑点，暗仓疤痕及黑眼圈等

（粉扑）SKIN79美白防晒修颜粉饼 SPF30 PA++ (自然色#2)a.k.a

SKIN79 Sun Protect Beblesh Pact SPF 30 PA++

http://www.cutetygirl.com/goods.php?id=2799

**防晒，遮盖瑕疵也很有效~

（紫色装）SKIN79 紫色梦幻防晒祛痘BB霜 SPF30 PA++ a.k.a

SKIN79 Dream Girls BB Cream SPF30 PA++

http://www.cutetygirl.com/goods.php?id=2187

**抗油效果一级棒，适合油性肌肤的美眉~

**颜色偏黑一点，适合较皮肤暗少许的美眉使用噢~

小熊图案多彩围巾

http://www.cutetygirl.com/goods.php?id=3721

**喜欢喜欢，超百搭，超可爱~

精品~三层花朵项链

http://www.cutetygirl.com/goods.php?id=4236

**搭配衣服很美，带起来效果很均匀的漂亮~

一言难尽

2010-05-15T20:06:00.003+08:00

忙碌了一整天，在家也像在学院读书般的做着应该完成的课业。
手机就放一旁，不理不睬，不愿让任何人来打扰我。
坐在书桌，看着时间慢慢过了，过了，一直过，我累了。
趴在桌面上睡着了，妈妈温柔的一双手挽醒了我，摸摸我头，
不断劝我累了就睡，不要在书桌上累坏自己，对身体不好。
我笑了，只对她说，读书累了就只好在半途休息再继续加油，
还附加了一句，辩道，她女儿不是个普通的小绵羊，
而是一只很坚持，很努力的小蜜蜂！
电话震动着，显示着他致电而来，浮现出不想接他的来电，
有种奇怪的感觉，就不想接到任何人的电话，有什么事，
就只希望对方面对面的交谈会比较好呢？有时很无奈的，
接起了电话，或许我的任性，没有好好的陪伴他，
感觉上我真的没有做好身为一个男生的女朋友责任，
在自己给自己人格评价上，给的留言可是人性，固执，好强，
很情绪化。问过自己能否改变那些我不喜欢的性格。
所谓“江山易改，本性难移”做任何事，无法改变自己。
做人不如作自己，只好在每个方面扮演者自己的角色。
遗憾的是，就如刁蛮公主的性格影响了我和他建立的感情，
大家的距离，越离越远，就像风一样，渐渐的飘去了，
他是否在生气我呢？他是否在哭诉着我的不好呢？
所有的事，责任在于两个人之间，现在的我不知道该怎么办？
我们的感情，是不是变质了？
你辛苦吗？为了等我，辛苦吗？我们的约定，又在延续吗？
还是我们渐渐的忽略了？
渐渐的让一切随水流去了？
不想失去，因为失去就永远的失去了~
不想错过，因为错过就永远挽不回了~
说过会改变的我们，好像什么也没实行的到~
说过会体谅的我们，几乎没有给到对方自由~
一段稳固的感情，需要双方的灌溉，需要两方的忍让，体谅，
往往，我得不到那一切的期望，我多么希望他是我体内的一条虫，
当我需要时，有他，当我不需要时，他会默默的支持，不要求其他，
当我低落时，他会尝试在我身边体贴的安慰，
当我撒娇时，他会带着阳光般微笑，说声好好好！听你的。
当我想单独的时候，他会一直守着电话，等我回电但不会致电。
我宁愿自己来承受一切换来别人的开心，地球上数百亿人口，
少了我，天还是一样的蓝，云还是一样的白，所有的事依旧不变，
人生还要过下去，为了一些不必烦恼自己，那又何苦呢？
此刻的我，还是专注于读书，妈妈之所谓反对我与哥哥在读书间交男女朋友，
她就是不想我浪费时间去面对如此深奥的问题，
她曾经告诉我，读书是重要，如果一个人做到你提出的要求，几乎是零。
但是只要一个人肯为了你，交换他的一切来当你的虫，长相厮守就没问题了。
目前我想静静的过。过我以前无忧无虑的日子，如此的怀念~

Move on Semester 3

2010-03-24T16:23:00.002+08:00

Dear my beloved blog,

Unconsciously, 6 months past. Too much of sad memories in Semester 2, creating too much of tragic incidents among friends. I miss them when they're new to me, so kind and cute. As time goes on, they are changing, used to be so selfish to each other, lies, betrayers and more. Thankful to my beloved, he still supporting me even I have not enough time to accompany him.. Same time, I'm so sorry for not accompany you perfectly.

As you know, I set my target and now I wish I would enjoy my holiday now but I'm still missing you in my mind. Very sorry for those days, I was staying in hostel for examination. I have been learnt much while staying in hostel. Commonly, I wouldn't ever wash my clothes with my own hands, I don't feel hard to wash a few clothes but at last I feel so. I can feel how hard my mom do this in my house daily without any help. Besides, I'm so glad that I know how to manage my time to keep my bed clean, neat and tidy. My mom, she taught me to fold my shirts, clean my room and way to arrange my clothes nicely. Anyway, Thanks my mom, I love you.

Exactly 20 days I've been in hostel, no entertainment, no games life, such a bored ! To be honest, the only entertainment available......... Books.. Study~~~~~~~ Study~~~~~~ Seriously, you will become crazy if you stay hostel for long time ( for my hostel ).. But it's good, so that it forces me to study whole day without any disturbance or game attraction. Well, There's some pictures which posted on my facebook with a title " My Hostel Life ".. I would like to appreciate my beloved friend, Lee Peak Ngan ( Hostel Resident ) which allow me to stay with her in her room.. Thanks a lot !

2nd Semester ROCKS !!

2009-11-21T23:01:00.004+08:00

Scanning list of semester 2 subjects; Microbiology, Immunology, Immunohaematology, Diagnostic Haematology, Parasitology, Clinical Biochemistry, Anatomy and Physiology and Moral Studies... Kinda excited to face new challenges, new syllabus~ First of all, I would like to brief about all the subjects and my current status with those subjects :-

(a) Microbiology

Lecturer: (Lecture + Tutorial) Mr. Sreejith
(Practical) Mr. Sreejith

Step into my classroom, my very first lesson was Microbiology... Wondering what it gonna be~ Well, possible it will be interesting since I know that it is all about bacteria and viruses~ Borrowed some related books from library and refer for weeks, realise that how interesting Microbiology will be, how diseases occur in this world, how scientist introduce their theories and researches~ Nowadays, H1N1 occupied as a biggest issue in the world still Hepatitis B and C will be the 1st in disease caused by viruses in the world.. It sounds interesting and challenging~ But... There's something I hate the most =.=" !!! From what you understand what is Microbiology, same time you need to memorise such a long long long long and damn horrible LONG NAMES !!! lol .. Banging my head to the wall, too bad I love this subject~ Just because of joyful of making bacteria culture.. Culturing those viruses that bring harm to human being... To test, to culture, to cure, to research, to diagnosis~ Currently, I did my bacteria smears, Staining for bacteria, Observing how bacteria looks like and identified accurately =D

(b) Immunology

Lecturer: (Lecture + Tutorial) Dr. Jega
(Practical) Mdm. Sree

Hoho.... The hardest subject I'm facing now ! lol.. I think most of you will know, obviously this subject related to our human immunity towards diseases... Gain some knowledge about antibodies, such as IgM, an antibodies that produce in human body naturally when delivered in this world within 6 months old; IgG, an antibodies that produce in human body when antigens stimulate the immunity of specific human body and etc... Just mentioned world highest dangerous disease, Hepatitis B and C... Every kid given Hepatitis B protection, by inject vaccine to all babies borned since 1990.. Sadly, till now there's no vaccination for Hepatitis C ( sigh~ ).. A lot of people wondering why Hepatitis B and C having the highest rate of infectious but why not Hepatitis A? Scientist found out that Hepatitis A spread the infection by oral, food, seafood will be the one, seafood lovers are advisable to take vaccine against Hepatitis A as it may cause liver cirrhosis when it goes to the terminal stage.. Unlike Hepatitis B and C, it infect to host (human being) by a drop of blood that contact with wound or any injury of skin.. Isn't it crazy? One drop of blood can cause one person to face the whole life of infection.. Pity.. By time, I had learnt till Antibodies and antigens, the method of performing serum towards antigen.. World, I will be joining The WHO ( World Health Organization ) bring my research and if possible with my vaccine to cure disease that out of solution...

(c) Immunohaematology

Lecturer: (Lecture + Tutorial) Mr. Sreejith
(Practical) Mr. Sreejith

By the way, Quite speechless about this subject as it almost same with the combination of Immunology and Diagnostic Haematology that we going to discuss next.. From the name given for this subject, dealing with blood is a must and of course with the other human specimens too (Stool, urine, Sputum, tissue fluids, saliva, etc...) Kinda shocked when I know I'm going to collect those " disgusting " specimens from a patient.. What to do, just used to it.. Training myself to face it.. The nightmare of my life, the SMELLS !! Yucks!!!!! Just hope it won't be a phobia for me =.=" !! Rarely stools and urine (unless the patient is required for a glucose estimation) will be collected.. Majority blood will occur daily in the rest of my life.. Observe our human common blood component; Red Blood Cells, Whit blood Cells, Platelets and Serum (obtained after centrifuged, without anticoagulant added to the blood) or plasma (obtained after centrifuged, with anticoagulant added to the blood)... Definitely it will be fun and exciting when you involve in hands-on exercise always~

(d) Diagnostic Haematology (D.H)

Lecturer: (Lecture + Tutorial) Mr. Sreejith
(Practical) Mr.Sreejith

Simiilar as Immunohaematology =D~ Did you know what's the major difference between this 2 subjects? Obviously the name ! xD lol... Did you donate any blood before? If you did, where did your blood will be ? Did you heard about blood transfusion? Did you wonder how doctor and nurse tansfuse the blood from one person to the other blood acceptor patients? Well, you're considerate if you did care the others.. Have you even wonder your blood holding a chance to save a person in the world.. Don't be stingy, guys and girls be sincere, donate your fresh blood to help a person in the world.. A pack of 250ml of fresh blood bring back a worthful life, how meaningful is that~ Be frank, not for ladies or girls, donation of blood is just a process of saving.. I have interviewed few friends, yet I found out they are facing fears towards the needles~ Common for everyone, holding a fear when the needle approaching to your vein, and I'm the one ! Currently, I have recovered from needle phobia.. Started to hold responsibility of testing, grouping by using various type of Anti sera (grouping reagents) and cross matching of bloods~ Save human in the world as much as I can ~

(e) Parasitology

Lecturer: (Lecture + Tutorial) Mr.Sreejith
(Practical) Mr.Sreejith

Almost similar with microbiology, difference just the study of parasites... Cancers that causes by a tiny parasite which rated as highly dangerous once they enter human colon (intestine).. every illness will started in primary stage but end up with terminal stage.. Besides for determination, identification plays the main role in this subjects~ Bacteria, Viruses and Parasites having same appearance when we view under microscope~ Short brief about Parasitology (not much syllabus to discuss).. The famous parasites that causes diarrhea; Entamoeba coli (a parasite commonly spread by using spore). Entamoeba histolytical (a parasite spread through oral to intestine and spread evenly with a ratio of 1 nucleus to 8 other daughter amoebulaes and it will lead liver abscess or intestine cancer unless it given medication earlier)... So scary when I heard this hazardous parasite~ We can prevent it by avoiding raw food as well as dirty hand in contact to our mouth~ Reminder ! Do wash your hand regularly yaaa !!!

(f) Clinical Biochemistry

Lecturer: (Lecture + Tutorial) Mr. Joseph Lopaz
(Practical) Mdm. Saras

Not much to say about this subject~ Since my lecturer always in a busy status due to meetings and councils~ Till now, only practical available in class.. Mid semester examination is coming.. Can't imagine how we going to survive in this subject that without a lecture to provide us notes and guidance.. Only hope that we can pass through this hard time by gaining extra knowledge in practical lesson... Full of sadness! I missed my Ex Clinical Biochemistry lecturer T.T Unfortunately, we need to say good bye to him since he provided a better offer from the government~ Bye and take care Mr. Pannir.. Miss you ever~

(g) Anatomy & Physiology

Lecturer: (Lecture + Tutorial) Mdm. Sree
(Practical) Mdm. Sree

A subject harder than Biology indeed.. The study of human cells, tissues, systems, structures and functions of everything involved in on human body~ Quite useless and nonsense this subject occurring in my subject list~ Sigh~ Happiness to escape Biology (a bored subject compare to microbiology).. You know, the nightmare is just began~ Escaped Biology, continue by Anatomy and Physiology =.=" ! What's The Difference Man !!!!! ROAR!!!! I hate this I hate this SUBJECT as well as this LECTURER !!!! Lecture = Read notes.. making me to sleep~ Glad to see that she changed her teaching method~ Is good~ Wait and see~ Trying to cope up or else I am DEAD in final !

(h) Moral Studies

Lecturer: (Lecture + Tutorial) Mr. Aladin

Obviously, Moral Studies and Malaysian Studies are compulsory for every college students in Malaysia.. Since I took my Malaysian Studies in previous semester, this semester i will be facing last MQA (Malaysia Qualification Agency) subject~ Hurray!! Hm to describe this subject is very easy~ A word and a sigh required~ " BORED!" Gladly, my lecture is a good guy and brings a lot of jokes to wake us up~ Thanks to him anyway, hope we appreciate what he taught us lately~ =D

As a simple conclusion, few subjects need 3 semester to complete~ To make sure we can master and expert in the specific field~ As we moving to other harder semester, clinical attachment period is approaching us~ Be confidence on your decision~ Do the best achieve the rest~ Just try to be as good as doctors, perform better skills avoiding error in everything~ Cover the world with a sheet of love and cares~ Valuable life is the best among the rest~ Appreciate your life, HUMAN!

Dahh~

2009-11-06T21:32:00.002+08:00

Pending for months, everyday, every minute and every second~ My mind fulfill with result grades A, A-, B+, B, B-, C+ and so on~ But the only thing i focus is just the F grade =.=" ~ like to think tooo much ? Opsss~ Just worried my bloody malaysian studies ~ Haiz, do hope so i manage to pass but not for distinction, lolx ! Because I know my own ability, I hate subjects that similar with my history ( memorise )~ Yet, I hate my MS's lecturer as well ! haha ! He is a troublesome old man, love to bring issues from small to big til the ears of head of department...

Well, kinda nervous that day before my result is out~ Funniest thing was my lecturer open the door and look at me give out a sigh =.=" At the moment, my brain full of disappointment just feel like fed up with my result~ Sir came out with a paper, I know that's my batch's result ! I'm the first one who stand in front of the notice board... Once the result is sticked, I took a ruler and refer~~~ ~~~~~ Surprisingly, I did not fail any subject yet I got 5A's, 2B+ and 1C for malaysian studies with a pointer of 3.48 (CGPA) ~ Should I say I'm too happy or relief?

With my broken english I still manage to get B+, that's good enough for me anyway ~ Quickly, I hold my phone and dial to my mom abt this good news... Of course, she was shocking abot my unexpected result~ Just really thankful to eveything I did so that I deserve to get this to make my mom feel proud of it ~ 1st semester is over, and now I'm facing the 2nd semester, challenging pathway is waiting for me, just have to promise myself and try my own best to maintain the pointer so that it won't waste my time due to repeat the previous semester~

My days

2009-10-21T23:38:00.004+08:00

Finally, my brother get his result.. Well, glad to say he did very well and there's 3 A's for him.. Congratulation my dear bro, Keep it up.. ! Same time it makes me sad as well.. I wonder why I will cry when I'm taking my shower.. Stand in front of mirror and blame myself, start to close my face and cry, can't I just clever than my dear brother ? So curious about the reasons, really hope I can beat my brother.. Hmmm, as what my mom said I'm always remain as a winner,I can't face failure in my life! It's true! Quite headache to face this kind of inborn attitude.. In the other way round, I don't want it ! I hate it ! Leave me alone!

Pending my result already 1 month, nervous! I went my uni today for my result.. It's harsh to say Bloody Hell to the admin.. All my friends started their new semester and I have to stuck in first semester holiday, still remain semester break! I hate my holidays! I need my studies! Unfortunately, there's one more week to go, predict my result will be there after school reopen.. sad! Well, before I forget, I have to congrats my friend that he got his own sweetheart.. Blessing them to be happy forever since I saw their lovely couple pictures..

For me, almost one month I didn't update my blog~ Helping my grandma to print and check something at office and yet.. I realise I couldn't accompany my dear for weeks so do him.. His tough semester is on going, do hope he can take care very well and study smart~ For sure, missing him is the must for me, missing him also my responsibility as we know we are husband and wife since we patch back.. Love him forever.. 66 days more to meet him, really do miss him badly especially night time when I needed him so much to lend me a warm hug and a lovely kiss~

While waiting, I did a lot of things to spend my holiday but of course mostly goes to shopping with friends.. Certainly, I do not have any financial support from my mom as I do not have school.. Currently, facing financial problem for pocket money, no worries, saving brings benefit! Hahaha... Holidays make me change a lot.. Main will goes to motivate myself study hard to achieve the aims I have been set since form 4 to be a highly educated girl ! Oh yea! I'm not a beauty but I'm proud that I'm highly educated..

As what I know, to love a person, not for their outlook but their heart (eg, my beloved husband, Nicholas =D ), of course with 5C's ( Capability, Care, Career, Confidence and Consideration ).. Maybe my dear don't have a good outlook, with 5C's that's enough for the rest of my life =) So glad that he trusted me for such a long time.. Thanks for your support, Love you my beloved dear~

Cookies~

2009-09-15T00:48:00.003+08:00

*+* Bought our ingredients, hi-tea at Gasoline *+*

*+* Joslin and Sarbesh at Gasoline *+*

*+* Old fashioned oven but bake nice cookies *+*

*+* Corn Flakes cookies *+*

*+* Process of arranging *+*

*+* Our production, half finished.. *+*

*+* Observe the container *+*

Days Of Cookies

2009-09-14T13:11:00.004+08:00

There's once in my life time~ Hang out with my college friends for ingredients.. Took all those useless items put in my trolley instead of my needs~ I love my friends, they're funny~ always telling me variety of jokes, making a lot of laughs~ 12/9/09 I went out with them.. I brought them to Time Square Cold Storage... Saw a lot of veges, Ingredients, Baking needs etc.. i took a trolley exactly look like an aunt... wahaha.. walk here and there.. turn here and there... and my friends laughing like a monkey~

It takes half an hour, I finish searching my ingredients.. One of my friend pull me to the non-halal section and asked me a question~~ " Will malay come in? " I totally blank out and sweat.... Everyone know the answer =.=... Of course i end up her question with dots ...... kakaka~ But I'm sorry to say it is too harsh to talk to my indian friends~ hehe~ But anyway, I really like to mix up with them~

It's quite late when i reach home.. Took a nice hot shower ( Rainy day ) ~ Lye on my bed cover with a thick and warm blanket~ Missing him so much.. Just feel like hug and kiss him.. Miss his body temp to warm me up T.T Argh~ tears dropping~ one drop by one drop... I really can't wait to meet him~ Hate myself so much that i needed him so much every night~

From the ex night we being together, I started to cry and miss him even I just lye on my bed~ silly huh ? Over flow the love on him ? Don't know~ Few days didn't online and accompany him, felt so guilty and depressed... This wife didn't do well her responsibility on her hubby.. Banging head to wall... So stupid!!

One depress and unhappy night passed... Started my next day ( 13/9/09 ) with a full of refresh mind~ Open my eyes from sweet date dream, hugging my bluster and smile.. I knew my hubby will always be right beside me =) I knew he woke up and sure smile beside me and observe a piggy wife =D~

Brushed my teeth happily, drink a cup of low fat milk and changed my clothes (I don't want to wear pajamas and bake my cookies ) Sharp 1130am my friends came... Saw my mom, thought she's my sister... Surprisingly, they call my mom sister!!! wahahaha~ Finished the intro, we had our small portion of breakfast and started our baking process..

Guess what~ We did 100++ of chocolate mocha cookies and corn flakes cookies~ What I like was flour on my face~ haha~ and they almost turn my kitchen around.. of course my mom will be the one who suffer ( She needs to clean up for me ) Thanks mama ~ muaksss Love you~ So much of hard work... It took 5 hours to finish those baking process...

To save our time, 2 of us making corn flakes cookies ( sounds great and tasty ) Actually is a combination of corn flakes, chocolates and butter only... Only important steps is to mix up everything and put in the freezer~ We are so tired after we finished everything~ Feel happy when we success our cookies with a nice color~ So, anyone want to try my cookies? =D Just let me know, I'm glad to lend a few pieces =)

I Love Cookies~ Same time I learn baking cookies is just for my dear =D

Because I'm going to be his future wife as well~ =D

Freeeeee ~~~~

2009-09-12T21:43:00.002+08:00

Yahoo!!!! Finally I'm free from 1st semester~

So glad... Anyway goodbye my 1st sem and say hello to my 2nd sem~

Sharon, Welcome to MLT's specified subjects... Microbio, Immuno, C. Biochem and etc

But still I can't free from MQA subjects T.T ~ Moral will be the next~

Frankly, Can't wait to face those fresh challenges~

New practicals, new theories, new lecturers~

Do hope so my lecturer will be better than the first semester~

Same time, I'm so sorry to my lao gong~ I do not spend more time accompany him~

Most of the time with my friends, making my cookies and some hang out...

Really do miss him even though i'm outside...

I know he did the same thing~ But still i feel so guilty... didnt be a good lao po for him~

But i promise i will do~ =D muakssss to my lao gong~

Few more days wanna go genting~ My mom reserved a resort for me and my 2 friends~

Planning to stay there one night on 16 Sept... Can't wait for it....

Looking forward what will we do at midnight ~~

Shhh..... =D I'll tell you guys after I'm back yaa~

Today went out with my friends, buying my ingredients happily~

Is there anyone want to try my homemade cookies?

I'm not so sure it can success or a failure...

Nehhh... Try for everything... Exactly headache you know... Ingredients and methods will be my challenge...

Instead, I have to face my 40 years old Oven T.T!! Argh!!

Told my mom to buy me a new oven so that it would be easier for me...

Main thing is it won't transfer a nice look cookies to a charcoal =.=" Sweatzz~

So jealous with all my friends, they owned an oven T.T ~

Whatever, Just go on and try ( I tried before, it was lucky that the cookies can be eaten! )

Funny... But tomorrow will be the special and new method I need to learn...

Skills of Piping with nozzles, skills of making icing for the chocolate cookies topping~

I hope my friends and family will like it...

Wish me luck...

My phone out of credit today.. I mean whole day...

Kinda worry and miss my beloved... Finally I went back home earlier so that I can accompany him~

Muaksss.... once again~ sorry my lao gong~ muakssss~

102 days to go to meet each other~

I can't wait for that day~ muakssssss~ Love you... and lao po promise will spend more time with you ( even though through pcs and webcams )

I don't want to leave my lao gong lonely muaksssss~

Love Ya... muaksss~

A short pathway ( Since form 4 )

2009-08-31T12:27:00.008+08:00

Merdeka... Merdeka... and Merdeka...

Frankly, merdeka just for country but not me~ Sweats~

Not feeling well for 2 days, my stomach paining like no buddy busniess =.=

Checking my phone's contents... Full of my pictures..

Sadly, it just started from my form 4 life till now...

*+* Used to be like a boy *+*

*+* Used to be hardworking *+*

*+* My board hi-tea *+*

*+* Used to hang out with Malay friend *+*

*+* Used to dress up nicely *+*

*+* Used to bring hp to school @.@ *+*

*+* Used to be a ghost xD *+*

*+* Hang out after got my SPM result *+*

*+* Started my uni's life *+*

*+* Used to mix with intelligent friends *+*

*+* New life started here *+*

*+* Instead, I know some guys as well.. *+*

*+* Used to be in genting with my new friends *+*

*+* Currently, from a boy-lish to girlish adi xD *+*

MCs

2009-07-31T20:18:00.002+08:00

Today was third day I fell ill.. It was torturing me since Wednesday evening..

Remember that participle day I went to Mid Valley accompany my friend to buy table fan..

While I'm on the way back, I felt dizzy.. And finally I faint.. Fell down accidentally..

But these incident I did not tell my friends and my family, I scared they worried..

So glad that one uncle help me up bring me for a seat and ask how am i..

When I reached my station, no cabs willing to fetch me home.. I think it might be a big jam..

Walked for 45 minutes, hold my suffer, hold my pain.......

I saw my house, I was glad to reach my house.. Lie on my bed, full of darkness in my eyes~

No feeling, no energy, feel like dying dying and dying... (No one in my house)

I can't stand the feeling anymore... Finally, I fell ill... Heavy flu, Coughing, fever and sore throat...

I want to tell my friend that I'm not feeling well.. Unfortunately, my friends busy.. Cant do anything..

First day of sick, torturing and suffering.. high fever gone and came back...

I hate fever..

Thursday morning, I can't even stand or sit properly on bed.. My mom was worrying me..

She did not sleep well yesterday night.. She cares me for whole night.. Thanks to have her..

Thought that I can recover Thursday, who knows Friday I can't make it to class...

Headache came to find me... So sad that I have to do all of things to cure my ill..

Almost 10 litres of water I drank for each day now..

Frankly, I gonna vomit if I drink water again..

I wish I could maintain back my good health as usual..

Guys and girls, drink more water, don't eat oily food..

Do not fall sick, it is torturing your health..

Sobxx

2009-07-26T20:05:00.007+08:00

Such a bad day, my bubei had something wrong again since 2 weeks ago.. T.T

Sobz, bubei bubei.. Don't make me worry about you..

Without you, my life will be nothing..

Without you, my life will stuck..

Without you, my friend can't call me for assignments and homeworks...

Please don't leave me!!!! My beloved bubei.......... handphone~

Talk with someone whole day.. Wondering who =>

Chatting + Gaming + Blurring today...

Check out my friends profiles, they're pretty girls..

Same time i wondering why can't I just same as them to be a gorgeous girl..

No time to exercise, no free time to manage a proper meal.. Perhaps............. no comment..

Might be excuses.. Might be true..

Nowadays I try to slim down myself.. Have to motivate myself to do more exercise~

Of course I won't skip my breakfast ( One of my way)

Always food in small portion ( Ususally I will take medium )

Exercise ( I need time.. Only thing i do will be sit-up for every morning, go away fats!! )

Oh ya, forgot to mention.. So glad that I found my blackheads solution!!

Yahoo!!! My blackheads kit.. product from a korean agency company, ETUDE HOUSE~

*+* My Blackhead kit~ Recommend to cure stubborn blackheads!!! *+*

*+* Two Combination steps (One) Heating Scrub *+*

*+* (Two) Blackheads kit [ a box with blackhead removing serum & Smoothing Cream ] *+*

*+* Strongly recommend *+*

*+* Passport Stickers *+*

*+* My ETUDE HOUSE Passport *+*

Today is a hot day, Can't really do anything to cure the hot feeling..

Arranging my notes for those different subjects...

3 weeks, easily to get headache by just looking at the notes..

Worrying my studies, can't really absorb what am i reading also....

Homeworks and assignments increasing...

ZzZzZz~ So sleepy man.. I need coffee~~~~

Nite Guys and Girls~

The End of Today...

Schooling Is Not Easy

2009-07-22T13:36:00.004+08:00

Day by day, finally it remains 3 more weeks to do my revision~

Previously, I could not think what's gonna be my final examination mark~

Full of nervous and tensions, sitting at the pc lab in my Uni...

Of course I saw a lot of couple here ( Indians )~

Hopefully my dear will be with me until the end of my studies..

Kinda moody today, didn't accompany my dear also.. Haiz.. I wish I could do that~

I hope I can be with him for few days to warm him up~

Count down my examination days, my lecturer giving me a lot of stress..

At last I have to manage it myself.. Crazy huh?

My relatives said I became thinner.. My answer was stressed and studies..

It's true also.. Few months ago, I started to skip my lunch.. Losing my appetite..

Do hope I can manage to take good care of myself~

Sore throat, ill, flu and etc.. Especially coughing for few weeks already.. Kinda worried myself..

Dear my friends, I'm happy that you all cheer me up..

I hope I really can do well in my final examination.. Hope I won't fail in my exam~

I don't want to retake my 1st sem.. ( The easiest semester for my MLT course!! )

T.T sob sob

To Head Off A Disaster

2009-07-16T19:29:00.003+08:00

Should I say I pray to god everyday?

Should I say I pray my grandpa everday?

Should I say I'm lucky because I did well?

Should I say I'm blessed by my family members and friends support?

But I would say yes for all... I'm so glad to have them..

Because of them I did well in my driving test~

That's the fate shows I should be driver for my family and my friends~ It's my pleasure too =)

Because of them I did well in my oral test today~

Surprisingly, I spoke fluently in front all my classmates =)

Because of them I did my assignment without any mistake~

And these, makes the lecturer smile often... Should be nice right? =)

Anyway my final is coming~ Very soon my first semester going to over ~

Frankly, I'm not willing to leave my first semester~ The easiest and full of joy~

I do really hope that the coming semester will be fine~

Still, I can maintain my relaxing and joyful life~

I love you to all my supportive friends.. Especially for someone that do not want to show their motivation in front of me~

Last but not least, 2 words to my family members, thank you is a must!!! I love you !

Anyway thanks for everything!

(^o^)(")

Driver? Passanger?

2009-07-14T10:33:00.003+08:00

Driving or sitting? This will be my last chance and I accept the fact! { my fate? T.T }

Sobzz.... Sadly, I can't attend my practical today T.T..

I can't meet my friends and hang out with them today T.T..

I missed my lecturer today T.T..

* Observing my watch * ditt.. dot... dit.. dot.... Tension man! Gonna take my exam soon..

Since last month I took my driving test, I failed~

So disappointed yet I still can't motivate myself very well to pass today..

Wondering I manage to pass or not T.T~

Brush my teeth ( bling bling~ shining man~ XD)

Went Clinic to take my MC ( Today I`m absent XD but doctor simply provide MC... kakaka)

Took my beloved breakfast ( milk + cereal ) yummy~ Wanna share with me? ( =P no way!)

Reading provided handout ( Biochemistry - Enzymes + Hormones) As revision? [Tough T.T]

Blurring in front of the pc and look after my games and MSN~ XD

(Facebook - Restaurant City, Pet Society, Barn Buddy and Happy Farm) lalalala~

Writing my blog? (erm..... of course or else how can you read my blog? =.=" Swttt~ )

Last but not least, WAITING A HANDSOME BROTHER FETCH ME (for driving test =.=")

Haizzzzz...... Wish me luck ya~

Something changed

2009-07-12T10:09:00.002+08:00

Good morning Sunday, sadly, Today I'm not very well.. Facing my coming soon final exam~ *Stressed* Headache, fever, cough etc.. Mood changing and changing.. Sometimes better sometimes worse and even worst~ Nic, thanks for calling me yesterday, so glad that u concern about me.. Your words really cheer me... A mount of assignments waiting for me to finish within one week, yet, my exam is coming and i can't manage to finish revision my Biochemistry.wonder that i have enough time to manage my studies and him or not.. Well, I think i could and I hope I could~ Facing financial problem now, I need a laptop for assignments in my Uni, waiting for loan balance~~~ * Waiting *

Talk about him, I quarrel with him almost 1 week continuously.. I did blame myself always
can't accompany my bf, of course not for him only, even for the exs... Frankly, after my SPM examination, a bunch of regretful in my mind.. turning and turning.. Like what my friend said, you did not pay anything how you gonna get back, " No pain, no gain" That's what they told me~ Refresh those words that annoy me from last year, I tried to put more hardwork on my studies~ I just want to get my diploma certificate with full of distinction remark from MLT Department.. So glad that I did my recent presentation very well.. ( Next will be my Oral test ) Nowadays I tried to train myself in English~ Learning learning.. Listening shouldn't be a problem for me.. For writing, ya i think, vocab and grammar (=.=")~

I do hope my dear can understand my situation.. Possible be alone for a period in my studies.. My aims, my targets, I need time and hardwork to achieve and to gain my best!

What`s My Mood Status ?

2009-05-20T22:06:00.003+08:00

Too stress on my studies? I do not have an idea on it... Honesty that`s damn stress my dears~ First semester I have to suffer for those " stranger ", I mean subjects that I did not learn before... I wonder what`s my mood status now... Feeling of depress, feeling of missing.... Are these punishment that I deserved after I did a lot of things?

Fully of relief just because my father upgrade my Microsoft to 2007... Nowadays I do not have any worries on my incoming assignments... Suddenly, I felt depressed... What`s........... What`s wrong with me... Do someone missed me? I knew my heart contains a weird taste... Not to say full taste... Guiding me to moody status and I do not have any concentration on my revisions for incoming mid semester exam (15/6 - 22/6)... For few days, I used to sit beside window yet enjoying shining stars... Even though I had a packed schedule for studies... Unrealisable, I did the same things since I started University life... Surprised?

This is the 7th week in the University... Used to get know all the locations of labs, classes, halls and more... I did very tired, need to exchange five to six buses per day for double journey... It almost takes 2 hours to reach the destination... Dears, If i don`t know how to tell you my problems... Blog is my first choice of expression... Sorry to say my english level still very weak... I do read newspaper for everyday.... no worries... relax just wanna "record" all my incidents and feelings here only...

" Happy Go Lucky ! Copyright By Sharon Low Sze Hean... "

我。。那么没用~

2009-05-13T05:08:00.003+08:00

四个星期了。。我在大学的日子已经渐渐第四个礼拜了~

原以为功课可以轻易的完成，怎知道，做完了又再来。。再好了又再来。。

之前我无意中，把我老公拿来出气~老公，真得很抱歉~

应该是学习环境改变的关系，对功课比之前更积极了~ 我只想做到最好，好让妈妈对我有信任~

心里其实一直闷着东西，自己也不懂得什么来的，想告诉我老公，但是。。不知道要怎样表达

所以我选择被老公觉得我不关心他，没关系，再大的压力我也可搞定，我们的感情一定没事的

这也是我对我们建立的感情中充满的信心~ 最近好累，不是赶功课就是做assignment。

很多天了，打开电脑就是写功课或者做电脑老师的功课~现在的我渐渐的不像以前了~

我很像一个不体谅老公心情的女生！几天了，不断责怪自己没有好好陪你。

对不起，我爱你。。。

我做的一切，也是为了大家未来着想~

今天又要赶assignment了，还蛮累得。每个星期四还要presentation哟~还真讨厌！

Days In My New Environment..... MAHSA College

2009-05-09T22:06:00.004+08:00

Dear blog,

Such a long time i didn`t update my posts.. I`m sorry darling..

Kinda busy for few days, yet, happily to say I tried something different in college~

First day of my lesson, there`re many assignment pending for my class..

Sadly, my course schedule packed everyday !! T.T Some of the day until 6pm..

Just scan through the list of my subjects.... Sounds challenging for me...

Biochemistry, Biostastistics, Biology, Malaysian Studies, Chemistry, Medical Science....

To get know more about those subjects... I did copy one textbook for reference~

Poceed to the next, for the practical~

Our sir and mdm did told us about the practical...

Too much of rules for it, but it seems like professional.. kaka~ I love it..

With a pure white lab coat, leather shoes, glove, mask and spec~

Fuyohh~ Looks like a doctor.. wakakaka~

Few weeks later, the very first medical science practical........ Blood Grouping~

And I`m the first one who tested... haha... my friend will be my first " doctor "~

*+* Meet My New Friend, Ferlaine *+*

*+* Joslin , Sharon, Ferlaine inside the lab *+*

*+* Wrap with Alcohol cotton... Coldd~ *+*

*+* Applying force~ Kinda pain ~ *+*

永远的１８岁庆祝！

2009-04-08T16:37:00.007+08:00

坐在窗的一旁，静静的听着鸟儿歌唱~ 突然觉得心情好平静。。回想起那天我和好多朋友们庆祝生日的欢乐~ 真的好谢谢他们的安排~ 搞得我好感动呢！如文忠 [我好朋友] 所料，只差一点，我的眼泪就掉了下来~ 我告诉了我朋友们，今年是我最开心最感动的生日庆祝~ 讲述那天，其实不是我生日的当天，但是他们决定提早庆祝~ 其实他们想给文忠和Ivan一个惊喜~ 到头来，他们说主角我也有份儿哦！好吧，跟大家分享我的快乐^.^

那天，君姐 [文忠的老婆] 早上驾车到老公的酒店载我和我老公，随着她的答应，他带我们去吃美味的早餐~还是她请客哦！呵呵呵呵~ 我，君姐和我老公是很好的一堆~ 你们相信吗，君姐还亲我的哦！=) 其实我也不太在意咯，看我老公的意见咯~ 吃得饱饱，吃得舒服，慢慢的安全的她开车载我们去金河广场。因为君姐是个如假包换的游泳老师，也没办法，她抽不到时间来陪我们咯~ 就好像换岗位，哈哈哈，淑怡 [大家叫她“老鼠”因为她很像！] 就刚好那时她说要参我们！到了那里，我和宝贝还有老鼠，一起走街咯~ 走着走着，我们的收获越来越多咯~ 先买了面膜，然后就是衣服咯~ 时间慢慢过，我们摇个电话给锦福 [文忠的好朋友，苹果的老公]和苹果 [锦福的老婆]，问问他们要不要跟我们一起吃饭~ 去金加利茶餐室等了满久他们终于来咯。

吃饱了，文忠就载我，锦福和宝贝去brem mall 买礼物和唱歌~结束了一个小时的歌唱，大家就走去买诸位寿星的礼物哦~ 超搞笑的！走着的路程，我和宝贝看不到文忠他们！当然就是摇个电话问他们在哪~ 他们的古老答案竟然是 “有缘就会遇到！”~ 靠！！那么大的商场，哪里那么容易遇到哦？！不过，我们还真有缘的！我刚好在礼品店看东西，居然遇到他们在选毛公仔~ 还是超大只的~ 我好奇的问他们要送给谁，文忠说要给君姐的，还问我如果我是她会喜欢什么颜色~ 他知道君姐是我好朋友，我一定会帮他做最好的选择~ “就褐色咯！不会太容易肮脏。”也刚好，我宝贝要送我公仔，文忠和锦福看到傻眼，立刻拉宝贝说不用破费~ 我也觉得到底发生什么事了？认识我的人，也知道我的生日有没有礼物也是无所谓~

买了礼物，也包好了~ 驾着车去找其他朋友，也由锦福带路到一间山上的餐馆庆祝~ 晚上了，自然路也暗了，还好锦福的驾车技术挺好的~ 坐他车也很稳哦~ 费了半个小时，我们到达了目的地，有雾水有风~ 好凉！看着锦福拿着特制的蛋糕给招待员，我们也好期待看看那蛋糕的样子~ 听他们说那蛋糕的来历可不简单哦~ 叫了好多东西吃，一面吃一面高谈阔论~ 好久没有这种感觉了~ 今年也是第一次我宝贝在我身边陪我庆祝生日哦。当然我和宝贝是有备而来的，买了一瓶红酒当文忠的生日礼物。。吃了好多东西，我也认识到几位新朋友，Ivan, Vincent 还有很多~ 填饱了肚子，蛋糕也出场咯！一个桌球的蛋糕！价值两百元耶！还是特别定做哦！

但是，最意外的是。。。。。我的名字。。。。。竟然有被写在那里~ 我傻眼了！他们还大声地说 SURPRISE!!!!!! 我眼眶开始挤满了眼泪，还是忍着不释放~ 拍照的过程，突然发觉到有个东西在后面。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。原来，是文忠拿着那只大公仔~他说送给我~ 他还承认，刚才他说要送给君姐是骗我的~ 我好开心哦，原来我宝贝也知道的~ 只是不讲~ [宝贝，你好坏哦~ 但是谢谢你哦！爱你~] 感动的抱着我老公，一直告诉他我很开心！送给文忠的红酒就开来喝咯！我们喝剩的烈酒也派上场咯！大家不断的灌酒！当然我也不例外！最可怜哦，文忠和Ivan差点被朋友推下餐馆的水池哦~ 还好电话，钱包全部拿出来了~ 不然阿，泡汤咯 =P，也同时，Vincent 请我和宝贝在四月尾去他举办的生日会~ 当然我们很乐意咯！那么好玩！

搞到两点多早上了，大家也累咯~ 锦福载我，宝贝，老鼠，苹果到酒吧看看咯．．当然，我们也带着累累的心情下，由锦福当司机载我和宝贝到酒店去休息咯。。就这样，我的庆祝就在这开心的一天完美的结束了。。

－朋友们！我的生日庆祝会照片就快放在本ｂｌｏｇ出现咯！尽情期待！！－

My Best Holiday, Langkawi ( 22.3.09 Till 25.3.09 )

2009-03-30T09:43:00.010+08:00

*+* Unbelievable!!!! *+*

*+* His GF Won`t Angry Mie =.=! Me And My Best Friend (Joe) *+*

*+* Reached Airport! The Best Ending For My Langkawi Trip~ *+*

*+* That`s Joe`s Camera =.= ! Why Jin Fu Promoting It? *+*

*+* Looks Like Cookies =.=!!! I Think I`m Hungry *+*

*+* It`s Totally Like A Mirror!!! I Love It! *+*

*+* Green Land, Blue Sea.. The Nature Of Earth *+*

*+* Just Simply Do~ But My Friend Said " Got Cha" To Me =.="! *+*

*+* Shadows Of Life! Which One Is Me? Clue: I`m The Active One! *+*

*+* Nice Lighting~ The Evening Beach Side *+*

*+* At The Airport~ Waitingg.............. *+*

*+* Waiting For Departure *+*

*+* Best View For Evening *+*

*+* Black Sand Beach Side~ *+*

*+* We Wonder How We Get There? =.=! Scary You know! *+*

*+* After Enjoying The Waterfall.. Same Time.... =.= Very Cold! *+*

*+* Pretty Hot Up There!! *+*

*+* We Are The First Customer Of The Day! *+*

*+* They Deserve To Do These For Food!! Kakakaka! *+*

*+* Now I Know Rabbits Are Seeking For Food!!! *+*

*+* I Love rabbits!! But this is the naughty one !!!! hehe *+*

*+* Kinda Blur.. Waiting For The Cable Car Operation! *+*

*+* See! We Are The Earliest!! Wahahaha! *+*

*+* Nothing To Do At Beach Side~~ Hot! *+*

*+* I Love The Grey Rabbit!!! Very Cute! *+*

Happiness Waiting For Me? I Don`t Think So!

2009-02-25T21:54:00.007+08:00

"ya ya! Whatever!" (Bang!)
I closed my room`s door with full of anger.. Was wondering what`s wrong I did today or last few days~ Sincerely, today was a fully bored day and I was a silly human being sitting inside my room (Accurately was me and my mom`s room).. Sadly, me and my beloved`s relationship not really well for few days.. Perhaps, some unpleasant reward from police makes him like that.. Cool down myself, controlling myself so that no quarrel occur... Too much of incidents happened this few days, I was scared! Most of my ex planning to patch back with me.. Surprisingly, these make me feel useless and worthless inside me... My bestie was busying with their studies.. (I can understand girls!) Told them everything, their comments try to change my mind so that I don`t care about them..

My bad thinking began when my relationship going worse to worst... Still, I`m using those memories in my mind to calm my feeling down... For longer time, my thinking changed again~ Stop myself to think those unimportant stuffs, out of sudden, I`m blanked.. Nothing inside my brain, the only was my result slip... Turning turning turning and turning................. Damn tension, wondering that white paper with those printed grades... Arghhh! Hopefully A1 only.. Imagining my future, felt excited with my college or university life~ Dreaming I become an intelligent student, work hard for my distinction results in future.. That`s my aim! To be or not to be, my driving courses coming soon~ Kinda happy and worried... There`s someone very supportive to me always provide me confidences~ Should I call him as my " Confidence Machine" ? Wakakakaka.. I`m sure he will be " sweat " now after read my post...

Missing him badly.. Wondering who will be the one that I missed.. Sometimes I was blaming myself didn`t really appreciate things around me~ Can`t give an answer to myself, I`m realise that I can`t mix up with those crazy family members.. These became my very first question to myself~ Non-stop searching for answers, perhaps I don`t have those attitude? Or maybe not ? I don`t know..... And these will become a mystery inside my heart thus no answer and solutions for it..

Watching Taiwanese drama, sometimes there`s some message from those dramas~ All about love, about care, about concern~ Over acting will provide wrong messages, yet, I get some message that I regret in only one Taiwanese drama, " miss no good "... I believe most of teenager watched this movie from Will Pan and Rannie Yong~ This drama started with a girl who always bring lots of smiles to everyone, she don`t care public`s comment on her and she loved everything belong hers names as, Small Flower.. Accidentally, she met up with a fashion designer, Tang Men, a cool, mature, handsome, honest guy~ Surely wondering how was he and she falling in love with each other.. Summarizing, finally Tang Men planning to go German to continue his career at the same time he wants to marry with small flower too... Unfortunately, his bestie, Si Le had admitted to hospital because of an accident~

He knows his beloved ( small flower) was kind and like his bestie last time.. What he did was ended his and her relationship cruelly instead he wants her to forget about him at all~ That`s impossible for her.. By the time his bestie awaken, he told Small Flower to express her feeling, her love toward Tang Men~ With full of sadness, he called her to go now while Tang Men was in the airport... Running Running Running and Running... She saw him and told him.... She loves him and these will be forever her choice~ I was surprised my tears dropping... Felt kinda sorry and regret that I didn`t tell him all my feeling... I was terrible and useless, I don`t have the confidence as like Small Flower to tell him my feeling.. Just let him leave here without any feelings... I`m really a kid, most of the time felt " If there`s doraemon in this world was great and awesome! " Seriously, am I silly? And things I really wanted to ask him was " Is it deserve to wait me like that? Don`t you think that`s worthless?! "

I KNOW YOU WILL WAIT FOR ME, BUT DOESN`T MEAN I WILL ACCEPT YOU !!

Incident Of The Day

2009-02-06T21:56:00.006+08:00

*+* Have To Push Up To Study My Biology By Myself !! It`s Sucks And Hard !! *+*

*+* I`m Not Robot ! T.T I Need Rest Too~ Hehe ! *+*

*+* My Reward From Studying ! Muhahaha From My Mother ! *+*

My Dream

2009-02-05T12:09:00.002+08:00

From the year of 2006, I always dreaming to become a/an chemist or architecture~ Time pass quickly, until the year of 2008, I had decided to study pharmacy and change my dream to pharmacist... Hmm chemist and pharmacist almost the same career for sure there`s some differences in between both.. First year of form 4, I was in sub- science stream yet to study chemistry, physics and engineering drawing.. The very first thing in my mind was achieve a good result to further my studies.. Absolutely hard to continue the road of pharmacist, the interest of study chemistry and other science subjects helps me to gain knowledge.. I would like to thank a person that guide me for 2 years in chemistry subject, she taught me patiently, Puan Low Tze Joo... She`s the prettiest teacher in my school, not only from her appearance but also from her attitude to her beloved students~ First day I went to her class, she`s fierce and strict.. Maybe I`m prefect, she expect higher achievement compare to other students.. She told me, I`m holding school high responsibility, and I should be role model in class as well.. Beginning of class, I felt bored and meaningless to study chemistry.. My teacher love to put me on first.. Argghhhh.. That`s my bad dream and best dream started.. Almost one year completely she taught me, from hate to love, I deeply admire and proud of her.. Follow her teaching, follow her lesson, I can truly accept her strict.. In fact, she always mentioned that`s for your own good..... owhhhhhhh~

One year ended very fast, my classmates and me praying, praying, praying~~~ Purpose? Just want Puan Low to continue teaching us... Full of cheers, she does teach us for the second year... With full of happiness, we felt glad to become her students again.. Still remember that my form 4 1st exam, I failed my chemistry.. I didn`t wonder and bother about that.. All scenes came out of sudden, and finally I passed the subject and with the grade of 3B in the second year 1st exam.. She`s proud.. For me, she`s the one who helps me a lot to love the subject.. Getting nearer to the final exam, SPM, I study my best, I make myself to be the person who let Puan Low feel very proud.. Study hard for everyday, finally get grade A2 in the trial final exam.. Her praises increase, she continue advise me to keep my good job until I finish my final exam and so to further my career studies.. 20th of November, That`s the day I`m facing my chemistry paper.. I did my revision for pass few days, bringing confidence to the examiner hall with all my knowledge and skills from her.. Finally I did it well, finished the exam with full of proud.. She hold my shoulder with those words " You did the best! ".. I knew she was looking me at the opposite office from the begin till the end of exam.. For lastly, I`m proud of myself because I did well..

No teacher No dreams.. That`s what I can tell everyone of my friends.. The only support from her, Puan Low ( My beloved chemistry teacher ) and my family in studies pushing me slowly towards my target.. That`s the time my dream come true in my life, yet, without her guidance, I wasn`t know the importance of dream..Thanks for so supportive to me and it works, my teacher..

Looking Forward

2009-02-05T11:35:00.001+08:00

Dring..... Dring...... Dring..... My phone is ringing... Opening my phone with a blur face, my darling was calling me~ Slept for 6 hours, felt kinda headache... Arghh.. paining.. Can`t really stand the feeling~ I brushed my teeth and washed my face slowly with eyes closing, ( Coon huh? ) walking along my house corridor to living hall, saw my mother sitting in front of my PC checking her mail box... Suddenly she told me to change my clothes, today she planning to register for me driving lesson... That`s terrible day, I need to face bored 5 hours for listening course, everything they decided for me, feeling like i`m puppet always controlled by my family... Think happily, I wish I could pass my driving exams easily.. At the same time also can stop my family comment on me....... So tired, so tired.... Hopefully my bored day will end up soon.. I can be free as well... My mother and brother said all about those things happily.. But actually they don`t know my own feeling, even though my brother studying psychology, he knows me but not deeply.. Same as my mother, she don`t know what am i thinking at all.. every time i make a decision will get rejection from them... To think more unhappiness, I closed myself inside my bedroom, cover with my comforter blanket, crying.. crying.. I don`t dare to tell anyone, I don`t dare to share with my family.. They even tease me in front of me... Never mind.. I just wish I can make myself feeling stable all the time... Nowadays, I`m really looking forward for my SPM result.. Really hopefully I can get my grades even more than my expectation... My dears, I`m so sad.. I live in sorrow life... Will I finish my life like this? God knows

- Work Was Tiring But Memorable -

2009-02-05T01:49:00.002+08:00

Guess what.. she`s the one who appear in my life of work~ First day that i met her was a memorable day... It`s easy for everyone to understand, from know to close.. As a mother, she was caring, lovely, friendly and kind.. That`s why i love to mix up with others no matter what`s the person race or trust... From first day we know each other, we seldom talk to each other, instead I`m scared of her because she`s strict to her co-workers... Try to guess how old are she, for sure everyone won`t believe she`s my one of the classmate`s mother... Looks Young huh? At the same time, many customers thought she`s my sister too.. haha.. Unbelievable huh?

Work as a permanent promoter for 4 years and 2009 was fifth year for her, she helps a lot and taught me everything... Not only teaching me, she was a hardworking women that I admired... I`m admitted to join her brand, Hazard... The first day and first sentences that she told me was " greetings my lovely girl, ready for a target races between brands? " I`m shocked and blurred, " Awesome! That`s challenging! " I replied confidently... She taught me all the communication skills, solving skills and location of stocks... She`s tidy and clean... Luckily, I had completed my cleaning for her and so I could catch up her steps... She trusted me, and hopefully we can reach our company target there was RM48,000 for only January..

Once she told me, my brain appeared lots of tension yet shocked with a big surprising eyes " WHAT???!!!!! " screaming softly in front of her... she`s trying to cheer me up " Do your best to achieve the aims! Only hardworking and smart communicate may help us! " I`m glad that she`s optimistic as what I did to myself.. That`s cheering... 10:30 morning on weekends, there was crowded, me and Annie only hope there`s lot of customers coming to check out our products... Generally, customers will only go for those famous brand to purchase their product for preparation of Chinese new year...

Out of our expectation, customers was fully occupied our brand counter... As what we said, we will do our best to achieve aims... We served them friendly, with a warm smile.. That`s true! Served with a smile helps a lot... Day by day, our target are getting closer... Usually break only limited 1 hour for each employee.. The inspiration of fighting target reduce our break... We willing to give more time to fight for large amount target... Annie told me, the last day of my work was 25 January, that`s the Chinese new year eve... Without thinking of that day, I had tried to help her as she concern about me and my family a lot...

The most memorable moment was me and my brand manager`s conversation... He`s a strict friendly, understanding, fair and lovely guy... He`s nearly 50 years instead he`s maintaining a good looking... The first day i met him was the first week of January~ For sure i didn`t know who`s he,his personality and also the way he treats workers~ At the time he was observing my counter, i thought he was a customers that just simply look around here... At the same time, a group of aunties was surrounded my counter, choosing shirts and slacks to their husband... That`s lucky day for me, I was Hokkien, and it helps me in that situation... I was trying to asking what they looking for and those sizes~ For hours i served them with only one warm smile face, the customers bought 3 shirts and 2 slacks from my counter... With happily, my promoter offered to give them more and more free gift... " You`re nice and friendly, I love your services.. Thanks for being my assistant to guide me about choosing better products! Bye~ " I`m blushed... and Annie gave me a sweet smile said " Well done! "

The manager was walking around our counter for hours, non-stop looking at me~ Out of sudden, he called me... He asked me about myself... Be safety, I lie him about all myself and except names.. Once i saw his tag, I`m surprised... The only time i realised he`s my manager... He look at me and smile nicely with warm sentences " No scares~ I`m Chris Loo, the manager for Hazard. From just now i`m observing how you serve customers~ Pretty good.. You done it well~ " I smiled and said " Thank you, That`s my responsibility " ... With all those praises, I became more confident for each day...

One and half week gone,I learnt how to sew slacks and cotton pants... That`s my pleasure to help customers sew... That`s tired after I finish my work at 10pm or sometimes might 11pm... Feeling great when I saw the increasing of sale for each day until the eve of Chinese new year... Finally, My last day came... The day before, I can`t sleep well... Feeling hard to leave Annie alone to fight and we shared our things together... I get know a lot of friends.. I love to share some sweets or candy with them just wanted to bring my happiness to them also...

Early morning of chinese new year eve, I received a big hamper from Annie.. It was touched and lovely, she said all promoters nearby share and they bought for me... I almost cried and receiver should not me and so for Annie from me~ Besides that, she gave me angpau... Oh god! She gave an excuse " New Year angpau shouldn`t reject and the only thing can do is accept.." Without any words, I hugged her and said thank you.. To remind me of everyone that appeared in my working life, their everything will be remember...

My New Life Started In 2009

2009-02-05T00:46:00.003+08:00

First day of 2009, I`m happy... Non-stop wondering where i get those feelings? Hm... The first day of this year, I felt lonely~ Felt something gone from me, kinda sad, kinda depress~ I`m always controlling my unhappy feelings~ Never mind, I can`t express my feelings by telling to someone even my beloved.. The only thing to do is expressing by blog... Lots of my friends joining blog and i... just follow their steps... So many years in secondary school, it is not easy to pass through those stages... For me, it makes me get know everything that I`m going to face in future~

Move in to 2009, I felt all my memories came out in my mind~ The good and bad impression and memories with my friends and teachers will not disappear in my whole life... I`m very appreciate what they brought me within 5 years... We quarrel, hate, share, joy and fun for years... We share warm between us... Instead, we face problem together plus solve problem together... I know a group of friends from prefectorial board... I changed.. Be lame, love jokes, be optimistic and the most important, smile to face anything~ I believe smile can cure everything~

About my 2008, form 5 life... Hahaha~ That`s funny year for me... The tension when facing SPM that year, I love complaining my stress to my beloved, to my friends, to my besties and the hottest was my family... Ah ha.. Isn`t I mention I love smile to face everything? It became my weakness too... Sometimes I won`t show my sadness to everyone... First fact, My attitude, stubborn and selfish... The only time that showing my real faces when I`m facing mirror, I will blame the only enemy, myself~ I believe "someone and the only one" read my blog, he`s this only one who know my attitude... I`m here to say sorry to him... That i hurted him hardly~ Remember everything that I did with a purpose behind~

Second fact, my bad communication skills, not good in expressing... These makes me crazy indeed... Yet, this problem won`t be my next blocking... I`m planning to take an extra class for improve my languages skills... Hopefully that`s improvement in my life... Day by day, I`m worried, I can`t relax for each day... Thinking of my result and the grades.. bringing me towards the road of dying... Haiz, whatever........ I don`t care too much, that can`t help me to get my result happily...

Lastly, about my new journey of love life, I hope my beloved will try to understand my situation, high expectation from my family... Now, I`m still seeking ways to further studies and also try to achieve my aims to be famous pharmacist in industrial... I told my dear about my future, about my dreams... Surprisingly, he told me, I became mature and changed a lot compare to the years before... With full of happiness feelings, I just said " Thank you, that`s beginning of real me"... Bring those sentences that chilled me lot, I started my first post of this blog...

*+* Journey of Love *+*