What`s My Mood Status ?

Too stress on my studies? I do not have an idea on it... Honesty that`s damn stress my dears~ First semester I have to suffer for those " stranger ", I mean subjects that I did not learn before... I wonder what`s my mood status now... Feeling of depress, feeling of missing.... Are these punishment that I deserved after I did a lot of things?

Fully of relief just because my father upgrade my Microsoft to 2007... Nowadays I do not have any worries on my incoming assignments... Suddenly, I felt depressed... What`s........... What`s wrong with me... Do someone missed me? I knew my heart contains a weird taste... Not to say full taste... Guiding me to moody status and I do not have any concentration on my revisions for incoming mid semester exam (15/6 - 22/6)... For few days, I used to sit beside window yet enjoying shining stars... Even though I had a packed schedule for studies... Unrealisable, I did the same things since I started University life... Surprised?

This is the 7th week in the University... Used to get know all the locations of labs, classes, halls and more... I did very tired, need to exchange five to six buses per day for double journey... It almost takes 2 hours to reach the destination... Dears, If i don`t know how to tell you my problems... Blog is my first choice of expression... Sorry to say my english level still very weak... I do read newspaper for everyday.... no worries... relax just wanna "record" all my incidents and feelings here only...

" Happy Go Lucky ! Copyright By Sharon Low Sze Hean... "

我。。那么没用~

四个星期了。。我在大学的日子已经渐渐第四个礼拜了~

原以为功课可以轻易的完成，怎知道，做完了又再来。。再好了又再来。。

之前我无意中，把我老公拿来出气~老公，真得很抱歉~

应该是学习环境改变的关系，对功课比之前更积极了~ 我只想做到最好，好让妈妈对我有信任~

心里其实一直闷着东西，自己也不懂得什么来的，想告诉我老公，但是。。不知道要怎样表达

所以我选择被老公觉得我不关心他，没关系，再大的压力我也可搞定，我们的感情一定没事的

这也是我对我们建立的感情中充满的信心~ 最近好累，不是赶功课就是做assignment。

很多天了，打开电脑就是写功课或者做电脑老师的功课~现在的我渐渐的不像以前了~

我很像一个不体谅老公心情的女生！几天了，不断责怪自己没有好好陪你。

对不起，我爱你。。。

我做的一切，也是为了大家未来着想~

今天又要赶assignment了，还蛮累得。每个星期四还要presentation哟~还真讨厌！

Days In My New Environment..... MAHSA College

Dear blog,

Such a long time i didn`t update my posts.. I`m sorry darling..

Kinda busy for few days, yet, happily to say I tried something different in college~

First day of my lesson, there`re many assignment pending for my class..

Sadly, my course schedule packed everyday !! T.T Some of the day until 6pm..

Just scan through the list of my subjects.... Sounds challenging for me...

Biochemistry, Biostastistics, Biology, Malaysian Studies, Chemistry, Medical Science....

To get know more about those subjects... I did copy one textbook for reference~

Poceed to the next, for the practical~

Our sir and mdm did told us about the practical...

Too much of rules for it, but it seems like professional.. kaka~ I love it..

With a pure white lab coat, leather shoes, glove, mask and spec~

Fuyohh~ Looks like a doctor.. wakakaka~

Few weeks later, the very first medical science practical........ Blood Grouping~

And I`m the first one who tested... haha... my friend will be my first " doctor "~

*+* Meet My New Friend, Ferlaine *+*

*+* Joslin , Sharon, Ferlaine inside the lab *+*

*+* Wrap with Alcohol cotton... Coldd~ *+*

*+* Applying force~ Kinda pain ~ *+*

永远的１８岁庆祝！

坐在窗的一旁，静静的听着鸟儿歌唱~ 突然觉得心情好平静。。回想起那天我和好多朋友们庆祝生日的欢乐~ 真的好谢谢他们的安排~ 搞得我好感动呢！如文忠 [我好朋友] 所料，只差一点，我的眼泪就掉了下来~ 我告诉了我朋友们，今年是我最开心最感动的生日庆祝~ 讲述那天，其实不是我生日的当天，但是他们决定提早庆祝~ 其实他们想给文忠和Ivan一个惊喜~ 到头来，他们说主角我也有份儿哦！好吧，跟大家分享我的快乐^.^

那天，君姐 [文忠的老婆] 早上驾车到老公的酒店载我和我老公，随着她的答应，他带我们去吃美味的早餐~还是她请客哦！呵呵呵呵~ 我，君姐和我老公是很好的一堆~ 你们相信吗，君姐还亲我的哦！=) 其实我也不太在意咯，看我老公的意见咯~ 吃得饱饱，吃得舒服，慢慢的安全的她开车载我们去金河广场。因为君姐是个如假包换的游泳老师，也没办法，她抽不到时间来陪我们咯~ 就好像换岗位，哈哈哈，淑怡 [大家叫她“老鼠”因为她很像！] 就刚好那时她说要参我们！到了那里，我和宝贝还有老鼠，一起走街咯~ 走着走着，我们的收获越来越多咯~ 先买了面膜，然后就是衣服咯~ 时间慢慢过，我们摇个电话给锦福 [文忠的好朋友，苹果的老公]和苹果 [锦福的老婆]，问问他们要不要跟我们一起吃饭~ 去金加利茶餐室等了满久他们终于来咯。

吃饱了，文忠就载我，锦福和宝贝去brem mall 买礼物和唱歌~结束了一个小时的歌唱，大家就走去买诸位寿星的礼物哦~ 超搞笑的！走着的路程，我和宝贝看不到文忠他们！当然就是摇个电话问他们在哪~ 他们的古老答案竟然是 “有缘就会遇到！”~ 靠！！那么大的商场，哪里那么容易遇到哦？！不过，我们还真有缘的！我刚好在礼品店看东西，居然遇到他们在选毛公仔~ 还是超大只的~ 我好奇的问他们要送给谁，文忠说要给君姐的，还问我如果我是她会喜欢什么颜色~ 他知道君姐是我好朋友，我一定会帮他做最好的选择~ “就褐色咯！不会太容易肮脏。”也刚好，我宝贝要送我公仔，文忠和锦福看到傻眼，立刻拉宝贝说不用破费~ 我也觉得到底发生什么事了？认识我的人，也知道我的生日有没有礼物也是无所谓~

买了礼物，也包好了~ 驾着车去找其他朋友，也由锦福带路到一间山上的餐馆庆祝~ 晚上了，自然路也暗了，还好锦福的驾车技术挺好的~ 坐他车也很稳哦~ 费了半个小时，我们到达了目的地，有雾水有风~ 好凉！看着锦福拿着特制的蛋糕给招待员，我们也好期待看看那蛋糕的样子~ 听他们说那蛋糕的来历可不简单哦~ 叫了好多东西吃，一面吃一面高谈阔论~ 好久没有这种感觉了~ 今年也是第一次我宝贝在我身边陪我庆祝生日哦。当然我和宝贝是有备而来的，买了一瓶红酒当文忠的生日礼物。。吃了好多东西，我也认识到几位新朋友，Ivan, Vincent 还有很多~ 填饱了肚子，蛋糕也出场咯！一个桌球的蛋糕！价值两百元耶！还是特别定做哦！

但是，最意外的是。。。。。我的名字。。。。。竟然有被写在那里~ 我傻眼了！他们还大声地说 SURPRISE!!!!!! 我眼眶开始挤满了眼泪，还是忍着不释放~ 拍照的过程，突然发觉到有个东西在后面。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。原来，是文忠拿着那只大公仔~他说送给我~ 他还承认，刚才他说要送给君姐是骗我的~ 我好开心哦，原来我宝贝也知道的~ 只是不讲~ [宝贝，你好坏哦~ 但是谢谢你哦！爱你~] 感动的抱着我老公，一直告诉他我很开心！送给文忠的红酒就开来喝咯！我们喝剩的烈酒也派上场咯！大家不断的灌酒！当然我也不例外！最可怜哦，文忠和Ivan差点被朋友推下餐馆的水池哦~ 还好电话，钱包全部拿出来了~ 不然阿，泡汤咯 =P，也同时，Vincent 请我和宝贝在四月尾去他举办的生日会~ 当然我们很乐意咯！那么好玩！

搞到两点多早上了，大家也累咯~ 锦福载我，宝贝，老鼠，苹果到酒吧看看咯．．当然，我们也带着累累的心情下，由锦福当司机载我和宝贝到酒店去休息咯。。就这样，我的庆祝就在这开心的一天完美的结束了。。

－朋友们！我的生日庆祝会照片就快放在本ｂｌｏｇ出现咯！尽情期待！！－

My Best Holiday, Langkawi ( 22.3.09 Till 25.3.09 )

*+* Unbelievable!!!! *+*

*+* His GF Won`t Angry Mie =.=! Me And My Best Friend (Joe) *+*


*+* Reached Airport! The Best Ending For My Langkawi Trip~ *+*

*+* That`s Joe`s Camera =.= ! Why Jin Fu Promoting It? *+*

*+* Looks Like Cookies =.=!!! I Think I`m Hungry *+*

*+* It`s Totally Like A Mirror!!! I Love It! *+*

*+* Green Land, Blue Sea.. The Nature Of Earth *+*

*+* Just Simply Do~ But My Friend Said " Got Cha" To Me =.="! *+*

*+* Shadows Of Life! Which One Is Me? Clue: I`m The Active One! *+*

*+* Nice Lighting~ The Evening Beach Side *+*

*+* At The Airport~ Waitingg.............. *+*

*+* Waiting For Departure *+*

*+* Best View For Evening *+*

*+* Black Sand Beach Side~ *+*

*+* We Wonder How We Get There? =.=! Scary You know! *+*

*+* After Enjoying The Waterfall.. Same Time.... =.= Very Cold! *+*

*+* Pretty Hot Up There!! *+*

*+* We Are The First Customer Of The Day! *+*

*+* They Deserve To Do These For Food!! Kakakaka! *+*

*+* Now I Know Rabbits Are Seeking For Food!!! *+*

*+* I Love rabbits!! But this is the naughty one !!!! hehe *+*

*+* Kinda Blur.. Waiting For The Cable Car Operation! *+*

*+* See! We Are The Earliest!! Wahahaha! *+*

*+* Nothing To Do At Beach Side~~ Hot! *+*

*+* I Love The Grey Rabbit!!! Very Cute! *+*

Happiness Waiting For Me? I Don`t Think So!

"ya ya! Whatever!" (Bang!)
I closed my room`s door with full of anger.. Was wondering what`s wrong I did today or last few days~ Sincerely, today was a fully bored day and I was a silly human being sitting inside my room (Accurately was me and my mom`s room).. Sadly, me and my beloved`s relationship not really well for few days.. Perhaps, some unpleasant reward from police makes him like that.. Cool down myself, controlling myself so that no quarrel occur... Too much of incidents happened this few days, I was scared! Most of my ex planning to patch back with me.. Surprisingly, these make me feel useless and worthless inside me... My bestie was busying with their studies.. (I can understand girls!) Told them everything, their comments try to change my mind so that I don`t care about them..

My bad thinking began when my relationship going worse to worst... Still, I`m using those memories in my mind to calm my feeling down... For longer time, my thinking changed again~ Stop myself to think those unimportant stuffs, out of sudden, I`m blanked.. Nothing inside my brain, the only was my result slip... Turning turning turning and turning................. Damn tension, wondering that white paper with those printed grades... Arghhh! Hopefully A1 only.. Imagining my future, felt excited with my college or university life~ Dreaming I become an intelligent student, work hard for my distinction results in future.. That`s my aim! To be or not to be, my driving courses coming soon~ Kinda happy and worried... There`s someone very supportive to me always provide me confidences~ Should I call him as my " Confidence Machine" ? Wakakakaka.. I`m sure he will be " sweat " now after read my post...

Missing him badly.. Wondering who will be the one that I missed.. Sometimes I was blaming myself didn`t really appreciate things around me~ Can`t give an answer to myself, I`m realise that I can`t mix up with those crazy family members.. These became my very first question to myself~ Non-stop searching for answers, perhaps I don`t have those attitude? Or maybe not ? I don`t know..... And these will become a mystery inside my heart thus no answer and solutions for it..

Watching Taiwanese drama, sometimes there`s some message from those dramas~ All about love, about care, about concern~ Over acting will provide wrong messages, yet, I get some message that I regret in only one Taiwanese drama, " miss no good "... I believe most of teenager watched this movie from Will Pan and Rannie Yong~ This drama started with a girl who always bring lots of smiles to everyone, she don`t care public`s comment on her and she loved everything belong hers names as, Small Flower.. Accidentally, she met up with a fashion designer, Tang Men, a cool, mature, handsome, honest guy~ Surely wondering how was he and she falling in love with each other.. Summarizing, finally Tang Men planning to go German to continue his career at the same time he wants to marry with small flower too... Unfortunately, his bestie, Si Le had admitted to hospital because of an accident~

He knows his beloved ( small flower) was kind and like his bestie last time.. What he did was ended his and her relationship cruelly instead he wants her to forget about him at all~ That`s impossible for her.. By the time his bestie awaken, he told Small Flower to express her feeling, her love toward Tang Men~ With full of sadness, he called her to go now while Tang Men was in the airport... Running Running Running and Running... She saw him and told him.... She loves him and these will be forever her choice~ I was surprised my tears dropping... Felt kinda sorry and regret that I didn`t tell him all my feeling... I was terrible and useless, I don`t have the confidence as like Small Flower to tell him my feeling.. Just let him leave here without any feelings... I`m really a kid, most of the time felt " If there`s doraemon in this world was great and awesome! " Seriously, am I silly? And things I really wanted to ask him was " Is it deserve to wait me like that? Don`t you think that`s worthless?! "

I KNOW YOU WILL WAIT FOR ME, BUT DOESN`T MEAN I WILL ACCEPT YOU !!

Incident Of The Day

*+* Have To Push Up To Study My Biology By Myself !! It`s Sucks And Hard !! *+*

*+* I`m Not Robot ! T.T I Need Rest Too~ Hehe ! *+*

*+* My Reward From Studying ! Muhahaha From My Mother ! *+*